D4.v.2

1,2,3...4. 4, but version 2.

We are on our fourth design for the school year as you know. I am redesigning the Victoria Embankment Gardens - of which I have shared some history, the brief, and my mood board. 

We are several weeks in, and I had developed a concept plan which I was moving forward with in a mostly-motivated fashion. But all of that has been brought to a halt. I don't know how to put it into words, but I am starting over - the only way I can describe it is lemons, lemonade and going to pick oranges instead and I know that this does not make any sense to you, but in a round-about way, it abstractly makes sense to me. Sort of. I am still sorting it out really.

By having to start D4 again I feel as if I have had the wind knocked out of me. Or maybe deflated is a better explanation. I have been reaching to find my footing for the past 5.5 days and it's slowly, slowly surfacing. Is it though.

I am not upset with starting again (voluntarily), but I do feel puzzled. Maybe confused. A little bit of, "what am I supposed to do?" I am trying to find whatever it is I am supposed to find, on the site and in myself. And when you are not sure what you are looking for, it can be an interesting task to find it. But I am hoping that when I do, I will know it. 

So I spent today on site searching, searching. I walked away with a few hints...but no definite clarity. 

Looking for the sun to rise in my head. It's always darkest before the dawn.

 This is me doodling my thoughts at the gardens today while trying to find something more from me and the site.

This is me doodling my thoughts at the gardens today while trying to find something more from me and the site.

No failure here, only flight.