1,2,3...4. 4, but version 2.
We are on our fourth design for the school year as you know. I am redesigning the Victoria Embankment Gardens - of which I have shared some history, the brief, and my mood board.
We are several weeks in, and I had developed a concept plan which I was moving forward with in a mostly-motivated fashion. But all of that has been brought to a halt. I don't know how to put it into words, but I am starting over - the only way I can describe it is lemons, lemonade and going to pick oranges instead and I know that this does not make any sense to you, but in a round-about way, it abstractly makes sense to me. Sort of. I am still sorting it out really.
By having to start D4 again I feel as if I have had the wind knocked out of me. Or maybe deflated is a better explanation. I have been reaching to find my footing for the past 5.5 days and it's slowly, slowly surfacing. Is it though.
I am not upset with starting again (voluntarily), but I do feel puzzled. Maybe confused. A little bit of, "what am I supposed to do?" I am trying to find whatever it is I am supposed to find, on the site and in myself. And when you are not sure what you are looking for, it can be an interesting task to find it. But I am hoping that when I do, I will know it.
So I spent today on site searching, searching. I walked away with a few hints...but no definite clarity.
Looking for the sun to rise in my head. It's always darkest before the dawn.
No failure here, only flight.